Assignment 2 images - Depression portfolio updated

These are the images updated as per my tutor feedback - to create a more cohesive portfolio of images, an element of 'drawing' could be incorporated into each of the photographs. 

They were uploaded onto my blog so that I could discuss them with other students at the Brighton Biennial. 

No future
It's a nice clear day and then it's not; I could see and feel and understand and then the greyness starts to seep in. There's nothing I can do to stop it, it gets bigger and bigger and bigger until it takes over completely and everything slows to grey.

Black dog
He's an easy way to talk about it, superficial because he can't really explain my feelings but good at explaining my mood - bad day = big black dog! Before this, it wasn't really a dog, I'm not sure its really a dog now. But because I picked this dog, it seems more like a dog. A scary dog on a bad day.

Self medication
I'm entitled to some time off, time to not be who I am.

Trapped

I'm such an idiot! I didn't do that, I can't believe I did that.

How will I ever live this down, what are people saying about me?.

I can't go out again, what will people think?

I'm such an idiot. I can't stop thinking about it. I can't believe I did that.

Isolation

Its lonely not being able to talk about it. Just leave me alone, I'm fine.

Its difficult trying to talk about it. Just leave me alone, I'm fine.

Its impossible to put it into words so that you understand it. Just leave me alone, I'm fine 

Its tiring just trying not to think about it. Just leave me alone, I'm fine.

Its easier not to talk about it. Just leave me alone. Help me!

Every day tasks

Make you a cup of tea, on a bad day it would be just the same as you asking me to climb Mount Everest! 

It takes all my effort and concentration to walk across the room.

Frustration
No matter how hard I try to change things - nothing works; the harder I try, the more frustrating the situation becomes. I end up so angry and frustrated with myself, it feels like I'm crying inside my head and no one can see, so nobody can help!

Stuck

Tired, so tired I can't think or feel or breath.

So tired I can't move a muscle, I can't even close my eyes. 

So tired I can't sleep.

I feel like I'm dead.

I wish I was dead.

Feedback from the group in Brighton was very encouraging. An alternative approach suggested was to use the individual with the black dog (in every image) to communicate the different moods/stages of depression.

The drawings of the mug and the kettle, in every day tasks, were particularly appreciated.

Most interestingly, because of the amount of work involved in these images it would have been acceptable for me to have submitted fewer images for the assignment! That said, if I were to do this assignment again, I don't believe I would reduce the number of images in the portfolio - the 8 elements portrayed here only go part way to communicating the complexity of this disease.

The assignment brief states that this assignment is to be published on a blog page. I have yet to finalise the format in which I would like to present this particular assignment, in order for the photographs to make any sense the captions are critical. The size of the captions varies significantly and thus alters the size of the frame assigned to the image - I feel this is detracting and deminishes the overall strength of the portfolio.